“I’m afraid of taking life too seriously”

“I’m afraid of taking life too seriously”

“Not finding myself, losing my best friend, getting sick, not going on my trip, not going to grad school / getting into grad school, not maintaining friendships / not making good friends, not finding true love that’s meant to last, regretting losing love. losing family acceptance.”

“Not finding myself, losing my best friend, getting sick, not going on my trip, not going to grad school / getting into grad school, not maintaining friendships / not making good friends, not finding true love that’s meant to last, regretting losing love. losing family acceptance.”

“I don’t know if it is wisdom or follythat finding myself disabled in painor homelessmy biggest fear is notbeing raped or beaten or killed in the street- but that i will diewithout having it together enoughto make full use of my talentsto give the world something it can useor enjoy or learn from…- in short - that i might passand failto reciprocate out of gratefulnessfor all the world as provided me andenriched meto the pointI am embarrassed at thisfor all I havewhen those around meare so impoverishedthrough i don’t workthere is always some deadlinemore pressing than creativitysome complicated stepI am assuredwill take me to the placewhere I can work on my creative effortunimpeded”

“I don’t know if it is wisdom
or folly
that finding myself disabled
in pain
or homeless
my biggest fear is not
being raped or beaten or killed in the street
- but that i will die
without having it together enough
to make full use of my talents
to give the world something it can use
or enjoy or learn from…
- in short -
that i might pass
and fail
to reciprocate out of gratefulness
for all the world as provided me and
enriched me
to the point
I am embarrassed at this
for all I have
when those around me
are so impoverished
through i don’t work
there is always some deadline
more pressing than creativity
some complicated step
I am assured
will take me to the place
where I can work on my creative effort
unimpeded”

future
test
academics

future

test

academics

To rebuke other people of their evil speech

To rebuke other people of their evil speech

“I fear people dieing
It hurts”

“I fear people dieing

It hurts”

“That my hardest won’t be good enough”

“That my hardest won’t be good enough”

I’m scared of the dark and, hights,  I’m scared of jumping big dog, growing up, being homeless

I’m scared of the dark and, hights,  I’m scared of jumping big dog, growing up, being homeless

“I fear spiders!”

“I fear spiders!”

“I’m afraid that I wont know what to do with myself when I realize that all of my life’s obstacles are just in my head”

“I’m afraid that I wont know what to do with myself when I realize that all of my life’s obstacles are just in my head”

I am afraid of being abandoned and left all alone

I am afraid of being abandoned and left all alone

New things - change

New things - change

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